Thursday, 31 July 2008
Sudden of me.... Random of me... Somehow, Somewhere, some part of my heart knows....40 days more to the day that we will miss each other lots, lots and .... A day that i will worries for you... A day that my tears will start to drop... A day that my mind and soul will not be right... A day that my heart will always be with you... No worries for me... I will take care de... I will be here loving for you....!!! :)
9:57 pm
Tuesday, 29 July 2008
When i start working, i then realised i have grow fatter le.... OMG.. So sad!!! Cos everyday after lunch will sit at officer to do work... OMG!!! Although sometime will walk like shit, run here and there... But most of my time is sitting down, cos i don dare to always run out... Scare manager not happy...Today feel sian in office, like everything i bao like tat... Haiz... I noe i need to learn... But i cant multi-task can... How i do 3-4 things in a time.. While i am making a new access card, i need to help resident to do payment, i also need to help resident to do renovation form and at the same time i doing account... Wha lau leh... Like i am supre woman lor... Today got ppl come and teach us the video camera playback thingy... I went to learn but not my manager... Then the ppl is so nice go into the office and ask my manager wan to go learn ma.. he said " no, i a,m busy doing my things" Then i pass him the manual book, he said " the words so small, i read le will fall aslp." All the ppl in the officer was giving the wha lau eh face behind him... In the end u noe wat he ask me "grace, everything ok ar... u noe le right" I was saying "shit u la" in my mind... Everything also don wan to learn... Manager busy la.. But don push till like tat ma... Idiot!!!! Argh!!! After work, went home then went downstair run... I run 2 rounds ard my estate... WOW!!! I still can run... Although not very fast... haha.. After running went home do sit up all those... Make me feel much more better... Yeah!!! =)grace wan to run
grace wna to slim down
grace wan... (:
9:44 pm
Sunday, 27 July 2008
Below all this is jus me to you,
I really hope, wish we will be better... Like how we are in the past... Sometimes, u may think i don understand you, at the same time, i also will think do u understand me...??... But sometimes i myself also donno understand myself... I noe i have mood swing... But i can tell u, mostly is due to u... You also will effect my mood greatly.... That same goes to you too...
You often think breaking up is the best solution, but is tat really really the last way out... We have been thru so many problems together. Gone thru so many happy, sad, up and downs... Do it really worth it to jus end it this way... I noe u think single is the best, cos u can do wat u wan to do, without having the responsible, pressure, restriction from me... But i can say, it take 2 hands to clap... When u feel this way, i will also feel it too... But i will choose to bear with it, cos i get back love, care, concern, paitence, confidents and lots of happiness from us... I really hope this same goes to you too... No matter how tiring, unhappy, bad the situation can be, i choose to not give up... Cos i bu she de and i belive as long as we belive in, jiayou together, encourage each other, understanding each other, all this will be solve...
Sorry for always make u feel very lousy and retsricted, or to u i maybe a burden sometimes... I only can tell u... I am trying my best not to be one... So sometime trust me tat i can okies... Have confident in me... I will try my best to me better, good and best for you.... Always look at he bright side of life.... That's wat you tell me de.... I noe u may think all this is jus another rubbish or wat... But it really from my heart to you.... At the same time, u may also think i am forcing u to have my kind of thinking.... I am not okies.. I really wan us to be like last time... We can talk, joke, crap about evrerything under the sun or stars... There are no sercet between us... Always trueful... I like the past us, where we will jealous for each other when we saw something we don like... But we will tell each other and we will change for better... I like we will tease each other no matter how, cos both noe is all joking and the main objective is to make us laugh or smile.... I like we chase for the same video or show together cos we will share and talk about it later on when i watched till cry, u will help me wipe off my tears... I like when u or i sick, the worries and care we shower to each other, the things tat we do jus to wan us to reocver faster... I like we play games together on msn, online or even 1 hour trail games... Cos we will teach and play together.... I really like this way... Can we be like this again? Let jiayou to be like this again okies... When u tired, i borrow u my shoulders to rest... When u feeling down, i give u all my laughers and smile to cheer you up... When u feel troubled, i borrow you my ears to listen everything u wan me to... When u sick, i shower u all my cares and thoughtes till u recover... When u feel lonely or bored, i am jus a phone call away... I will be here for you, no matters wat...
Sorry for me hurting, the wrongs tat i did, the stupid tones tat u don like, the expression tat u don like, the way i speck tat u don like everythings tat make u feel angry, sad and wanna give up... Really very very sorry.... Remember out 3 N...Never be replcae. Never give up. & Never let u go. Do u still remmeber???I really mean wat i have said above, cos these are words from the bottoms of my heart to you...
1:53 am
This is my first week of working as a property officer... It quite nice and hard... Cos the ppl there are weird in a way... I must master the way they wan us to work with them, i then can work there smoothly ba... Jiayou!!!
Sat also need to work half way lor... Sian.... Most sian is before probation i must every sat work cos it good for me can learn more things... Nvmba...
After sat work, i went to OB EDU camp... It start at friday night but i cant join due to work...
I rushed down to sch without having any lunch... On the way down, i am very happy, cos i can see him there... However, he was assigned to be a GL for sally's group... Most of my moral was down, cos i thinking, " why do i go for this camp?" I seriously do not know y, cos at the first place, i cant find reason they will need our help... But i still go down to stay... Mostly is cos of him, tat the time we can be together... However, it happen the other way.... I of cos will feel sad... If change to other way round, will u be sad???
Start to work liao, another month u also in army le... How i don cherish the time with u... U may think got see, got meet, got pei is enough... But if it really so easy to be enough, how we going to stay together... Tat is y i feel more sad when i noe our time will be taken off... Even cant go find you, cant talk, cos i not a participant anymore...
I understand how u feel too... Want me to be supportive.. In this situation, i am really trying my best to recover le... sorry!!!!
Thru out the days there, i feel weird... Cos some wont even ask me for help or wat.. To me, it jus another I camp lor... Go there be extra only... Let freshies see our alumin faces lor... Tat how i feel la... Weird... Sian... Sad...
But i still act as normal, cos i really don wan ppl to be over concern about this... Is jus all my own thinking...
I found myself like to think alot recently... which can make me feel sad, sian or even cry sometimes but also got happy la... Sometimes, i really think i need times for myself to relax... But i noe u will worries when i am alone... Yes, i scare to be lonely too, but when i wish to really forget all the stress or unhappy, i wan to calm down.... No worries.. i can be strong de.... I will jiayou... Jus need ur support..!! Thanks... =)
12:21 am
Monday, 21 July 2008
Today is my first day of work... Doing some filing and learnt some stuff from my collegues... She is nice and friendly but she is quitting le... Sian... Without her like boring leh... Cos i wll be the only gal in the office.. OMG... Then went for lunch then went to HQ to pass come cheque and money over... Then went to meet laogong for dinner... We tried long john sliver de wrap.... Not bad.. (:After our nice dinner, we walk ard and went home le... haha... Gonna meet him on thursday... ):Tuesday he got roller blade, wednesday he got go sch for games... Only thrusday free... But do u noe, friday to me is also not consider a day tat we meet, cos is also OB day... So much misses yet cant win over u... Although I feel sad, i also don want to win u cos i scare u may feel burden again.. Nvm ba... Since u call me to belive in ur misses... Yes, i of cos belive in u... Hope u enjoy and take care...Thanks those who send me smssss to call me jiayou de... I really feel encouraged by u all.. It really mean alot to me...Thanks... I will jiayou de...!!! (:grace needs encouragement
grace needs sayang
grace need ...
8:08 pm
Saturday, 19 July 2008
Counting down, 1 more day to start work le.... OMG!!! Sian... Today went to BBDC to register for driving... I a bit scare cos i am really a noob in car lor... Then went to bugis awhile, bro drive me there...
But before tat he also bring me to BBDC and helped me in the register.... So nice of him...There are always someone and somebody there to brigthen up my day... Really feel blessed!!! =)I will cherish each day from now on.... I will not be lazy and jus say, i will really do it..!!! Althought, by saying is much more easier, but i prefer to do it... Cos every hours, every mintues, everyday really mean alot to me... As said by galgal(gracetan): " Go and have fun when u can, cos after u start work, got no time de and u will be tired too"Very true!!! By attending the meeting on the wed, i really gonna have alot of things to do...I gonna jiayou!!!! I noe there are a gp of nice and sweet frens encouraging me!!! Thx alot!!! =)I will cherish over friendship till forever... Even i am loaded by lots lots of work, u all are still in my heart... Cos i will miss u all!!!grace wants to cherish!!!
How about u all..??
Cherish okies!!!!
6:41 pm
Counting Down 2 more days to my first day of work... OMG... Times really flies sia... A week jus pass so fast.... This fews days been going out to get my working stuffs... Shirts, pant and bag... Thx darling for helping me in these... Then went to council meeting in my condo which i going to work in... The ppl there is nice and friendly... But i donno is it truly like this or jus a front cover of them... But really hope thery are nice ppl from their heart... The meeting end at 11pm... OMG...I gonna have this monthly... Which mean i gonna take a cab home alone monthly.... This sound scare to me cos i not dare to take cab alone... But i had done it, so it pretty good for me to be more independence lor... Then went to geylang with my AO frens ytd... It really a WOW trip for me... As tat is my first visit there... It show me another faces of singapore and it totally different and WHA!!!! All thanks to my lovely Eunice who plan all this for me jus becos she wan me to enjoy before i start my work.... She really sweet and nice... Thanks other who went and lead me the way... I really feel i am blessed to have them in my life... I really going to start work soon... Do u noe how i really feel about starting work??? I can tell u, i feel really sian and restless... I really need to jiayou.... Really thanks those who helped me or plan something for me so tat i can work happily... But somehow, somewhere, i still have tat feeling in me... Grace need to really wake up and face the reality le... :( Do U noe??
Do U really noe??
Do U really really noe??
12:17 am
Sunday, 13 July 2008
Suddenly... I think i got the ans for my weird feeling le.... Jus when reading blogs of my many frens... I found my answer... The answer is: I miss all of my fens.... I miss the days with all of them I miss the laughers and joys with them I miss the training, slacking and crapping with them I miss the chiong-ing for project, assginments and camps till the date due I miss I miss I miss I miss I miss lots lots lots and lots of them...Grace is cover by lots of misses... Too much of misses make me feel restless and liveless.... :(It gonna to be bad... But is okies.... I will put all y misses into my heart....To all my FRIENDS and LOVES ONE: I really miss the days spend with U ALL.... All the best in the path U all are pursue!!!! Jiayou X3... Loves U all so much.....!!! grace miss U
grace miss U ALL
grace missssss...!!!!
6:53 pm
Yes ar....!!!! I finally got myself a full-time job le... Yeah..!!! Have been job hunting for about 1 month plus liao... haha... Went thru 2-3 agent, send alot alot of my resumes... Finally i got in le... I got myself a property officer post to take care of a condon located at yio chu kang.... It seem like far to u all ma? My interviewers and agent keep asking me, is it okies, is it fine with me... Even i have told them i am okies with it cos it not as far as compare to my attachment place.... Going to start work soon.. Another 8 days more, meaning i still have 8 days more to enjoy and have fun... OMG!!!! SO short hor.... When i cant find a job, i keep haiz... Now, i got in i still haiz... hahaha.... Cos i going to join the robot routine soon... But there are more things for me to learn and experience... Jus pray hard my colleagues are friendly and easy-going... For those who still finding job, Studing or going to start sch... Jiayou okies... I also need to jiayou le.... Going to shop for office wear.... hahhaa.... Quite excited about it.... hahaha... Suddenly, i feeling weird... Donno why... jus somehow or somewhere is weird to me or...???!!!!I really donno...!!!! OMG LA!!!! grace need to jiayou
grace feel weird
grace is finding ans
6:25 pm
