Yes... I did not completed the race... Yup... I fall out at 17km... Ya... I give up... I am not that strong to complete it... I am weak to run.. I cant run tat far.... YES...!!! I noe i am weak.... I not an outdoor gal at all... I hate running... I hate sports... Those who noe the past of me... Noe tat i wont join outdoor activities... I wont run.. I wont join camps... But i joined OB... Cos i love them... I joined all kinds of activitives tat OB have.... Cos i wan to have fun and enjoy with them... But i noe i weak... I cant have the same fun and enjoyment with them... Cos we are different.... Different in physcial, mental and health... Everything so diferent... I am who i am.. I am weak in running... I not tat healthy..... I always caused worried to ppl ard me... SO SORRY...!!! But this is ME....YA... I always need ppl to help.. Aways need ppl to be there for me... Always need to ma fan ppl.... Sometimes i may even feel i am a burden.... OR maybe i already is a burden....
I noe all of u will say " U are not can...." " U already very li hai le" " U are the best le" But if u are not me who the one going thru all this.... Seeing my fren caused of me worried, delayed... U donno the feeling.. Yes.. I feel bad... I guilty too... So sorry to darling and cheng yi and lao gong... I noe U are trying not to make me feel burden... I noe U are trying to help... Trying to find solution to it... I noe not join anymore is jus avoiding but I noe where i stand... I noe my limit... I noe where i should stop... I hope when i stop... U will be there to say is okies... Sometimes or many times, the words i use or say is not very good or may even hurt my loves one.... But I mean no harm or sacastic.... Maybe U should also think the words u use and say... It hurts too... But I noe U also wan me to be stronger and better... Hope u will be there for me forever....
I am who i am... I am weak... U sure i am the one u wan? I wan to be strong.... But wat if i cant... Will u still be there?
I noe the answer... But i still wan to hear it from U, from ur heart...
Lao gong: Sorry for everything... Hope can be better for u... Jiayou together okies... =) Love you forever... Muack... Smile!!!
